So I want you guys to get to know me a little better. I am very awkward. I'm the kind of person who finds it very difficult to make friends and I feel like a lot of people can relate to that.
I worry, a lot. I worry that people aren't going to like me, I worry that I will annoy them and ultimately drive them away. I try so hard to make people like me and I try to be funny but sometimes it just comes off plain weird.
However! In the weirdest of times you will find someone, or in my case, two someones who relish in your weirdness with you. The two hotties in the picture with me aren't exactly strangers. I've known them for quite a while at work but for some reason we've never hung out. Well this changed in literally the blink of an eye. I felt like a blizzard had descended on me. Not that I'm complaining mind. I was literally like an excitable puppy. As sad as that sounds, a woman in her twenties should not be so freaking excited about making new friends. But hey, they embraced my weirdness and my awkwardness and welcomed me into their little group.
The thing I needed to realise is that I don't need to try hard. I don't need to pretend to be someone else because the people who are truly worth your time will always accept you for who you are. Now I know this sounds so cliché with the whole 'the right ones will love you no matter what' but it is true. We really don't need to try so hard. People get so hung up thinking they need to be a certain way because the media have dictated to us so many times what people should be like. Women should be curvy because men like curves, men should be muscular because men are supposed to be tough. The problem today is that so many people want the approval of complete strangers. Not that I'm innocent to this, I myself do the same thing sometimes. I crave the approval of others because I never had it growing up; don't think I'm doing the whole 'I had a bad childhood feel sorry for me' thing because I'm not like that.
Things are difficult for everyone, everyone goes through tough times and it moulds us into who we are. I turned out awkward and clingy and I crave attention. But in recent events with Jacqui and Vicki I feel like I'm actually getting there, and yes, Jacqui is the creator of The Brough Blog which turns out to be quite a hit and my inspiration for starting my own blog.
So guys that's all I really had to say, I hope you guys are happy and if you're going through a tough time I hope it gets better.
See ya guys :D